Such is life

I'm out of words currently, perhaps at a later date I will be able to blog properly... anyways, futureshop is keeping me on and moving me to Home Theater, Its still effing cold, and I am still roommateless until the 2nd... Missing Calzone and Brendalin

Alright so, christmas isn't so bad, its been a day filled with phone calls from family and friends, finding out that apparently I have more packages at the post office that is closed till the 27th...

These lonely days are only chased by lonelier nights, but lonely is only a mindset when you can realize that this is time to respect. Alone time should be cherished like any other moment, eventually there will be no such thing. One will have to share the moments in their life with someone who makes it better. Who makes every waking second that much better, however until that point one must become comfortable with being alone...

Ironically enough there is an overwhelming calm when you are by yourself on a night devoted to being with your family. Sure it would be nice being at home, however, this cannot happen so instead I am reading and listening to rap music... The christmas tunes are gone now and I am now being soothed by Dr. Dre, The Game, and some Slim Shady. Why is it that someone rapping about how lyrically successful they are and how badass their "whip" is just brings peace to my heart. I cannot express how much I can appreciate a good lyric strung together though.

some of my favorites of all time are,


"You make breaking hearts look so easy, seems like you've done this before"
Breaking - Anberlin

"Calling tears from deep inside, oh your so exquisite"
This Celluloid Dream - AFI

"Even though she doesn't believe in love, he is determined to call her bluff"
Remembering Sunday - All Time Low

"And all these stupid silly songs, keep trying to find your ears"
The Minstrel's Prayer - Cartel

"If you really loved me, you were too honest to show me, this might be the only way, that I can feel again"
Love In the Attic - Cauterize

"How I wish you could see the potential, potential of you and me, its like a book elegently bound, but in a language you can't read, just yet"
I will Possess your Heart - Death Cab for Cutie

"I lost something thats dime a dozen, she lost something thats one of a kind"
Echoes (remix) - Gorilla Zoe

"I always knew you would be the one to understand me, I guess thats why it took so long to get things right"
Be Calm - Fun.

"I swear when I grow up, I won't just buy you a rose, I will buy the flower shop and you will never be lonely"
The Gambler - Fun.

"She tells me I'm not capable of what they accuse me, with no remorse I stand and say that guilt is what I plead"
With Twilight as my Guide - The Mars Volta

anyways, that is all for now, Merry Christmas everyone...

As the holiday that I am not looking forward to comes closer and closer I am beginning to realize that maybe this is for the best. That maybe one christmas on my own will make me more thankful for everyone and everything in my life. Tomorrow will be a stupid day at work with all the last minute shoppers getting more and more obnoxious. I just can't comprehend on how some people get through in this world with the attitudes that they use on other people. It is beyond me on how society seems to be taking away Darwins law and making it so the stupid people are the ones that somehow succeed and reproduce.


Pro Darwinism

I can feel your breathe on me...

So this is probably the last time this person will be referenced in this blog, finally everything has come to an end. As much as it pains me to think this it is just easier to not fuel the flame. The best of times were had and now nothing will ever happen, instead of me writing I am just going to quote a song...

"Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were, what happened?
You were a priority, was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?"

Greener Grass

So after climbing over the fence I am finally getting adjusted to the taste of this new grass. I haven't worked out since I got here, which is very hard for me to do as many of you may know I have an addiction to doing so. Its been roughly two weeks and really I just feel antsy about working out. I agreed to work 60 hrs a week at the ol' futureshop so if anyone tries to get a hold of me and I don't answer, this is why. Anyways, need to prep for my day off tomorrow, night ya'll

The Haunting

Ah the frustrations of moving and being in some place new... So after everything that has been... we will call "setbacks". It is time that things start looking up, Its commission time at Futureshop (Finished the sales training in 4 days) which means I should be able to own some noobs in the DI department.

Despite every setback it must be looked at as an opportunity for growth. Anything that stands in your way at one point will be a bridge in the future. Its all on how your perspective is... Everything that one encounters is a lesson and If you are willing to learn you will be taught how to overcome. As humans, for the most part, we are willing to adjust and adapt to almost any situation to somehow make it benefit us in the end.

So this is me trying to learn, benefit, overcome, and build bridges...

Song of the week = The Haunting - Anberlin

It's german made so you know its good...

So upon waking up this morning I had several tasks to complete... Task one find that Jetta has been broken into.

Task two, confirm that Jetta's engine no longer accepts oil and spits it out and it isn't the fuel filter... Check...

Task three, resist urge to take life in frustration due to hating vehicle and frustration... check

One more thing needs to happen please...

Later

Side walk when she walks...

And so another day passes, the sales training at futureshop is becoming more and more repetitive. It is almost painful to learn how to greet and sell someone a product... Anyways thats not what this blog is about. Sure I could write about how friggen cold it is here, how much I miss kelowna, or how messy my room is because I am becoming lazy. However again I miss her, her specifically, not cause I don't love anyone else, but she is gone. Its so rough when you are so close to something and you just let it go. You believe everything is for the best, and that everything will work out. Somehow that just never seems like the case. Then you get stuck in a void... well should I move on... But what if she comes back... I'm in Grande Prairie... what can I move on to... You should be focused on getting your business going and not some chick... So many thought processes... So little time...

Anyways, thats all I have for today... I should clean my room and work on my business I guess

The new life...

So I now work in the digital imaging section of Futureshop, Grande Prairie division... It should be a fun adventure to see how good of a sales person I can be, make some mad skrilla from talking to peeps about cameras... Brenan and I spent the weekend grouting the backsplash, and laying some flooring in his entertainment room. Last night we went out for drinks at the ever populer Earls and ended up and Brenans work party drinking our faces off at "Better Than Freds" which is a pool hall type pub. It was glorious times and when we arrived home Brenan prayed to the gods for the whole night... Awesome. Anyways I am tired and lacking creativity so this is not going to be an exciting, witty blog...

Later homeslices...

P.s. the Jetta is leaking Oil and I hate volkswagens...

We takin' Over

So it was a successful day in grande prairie today, went on the hunt for some gyms, they all suck so far... The most promising was the college what at least at oly lifting platforms but no squat racks... weird. Anyways futureshop interview was interesting, they guy implied that he is willing to fire staff for better staff? after that I walked over to GNC (sorry billy) and apparently I knew the guy that worked there, small world. Anyways they are highering as well, I will be heading there shortly with a resume.

The bad news, Kitcat, my beloved child hood pet was put down today. She was getting old/wasn't able to see/couldn't hear/had seizures. Despite all of the problems previously stated I still loved her dearly and will miss her... Its one of the hardest things to ever hear really. Thankfully Billy did it for me, best ex roommate ever.

Anyways, Callie is home soon, time to make supper or she will beat me!

P.s. No yoga and goats milk found in grande prairie.... not cool

Its only like 0*C here suckers!

So here I was expecting to drive ~13 hours and to end up in alaska, guess what! Minimal snow and minimal cold suckers! It was actually warmer than kelowna when I arrived yesterday! The best part is I know nothing! Brenan took me for a drive yesterday to try and help me with the basic layout, but other then that, nothing. Thanks to everyone who made it out for a drink or six with me and I will miss the house people dearly. However I am just a plane ride or a 13 hour drive away! Along the way here i encounter a couple problems, the Jettas cd player went a little crazy and kept fighting the music, eventually it succame to my terrorist demands and played "Boston" by "Augustana" (thanks Katie) for 3 hours straight, as well as "We takin' over" by "Dj Khaled".

So its morning one of me being in Brenan and Calzones glorious house ((its reallllllllly beautiful) It could use some landscaping though) for the first hour I tried to figure out how to brew coffee from an advanced albertan coffee machine, after many texts to tech support (Callie) I finally figured it out. The coffee is hardly the El Salvadorian brew that Billy and I were sporting... I mean I can still smell and see after my first glass... What kind of coffee is this... Anyways Its time for me to shave off the up north beard so that I can try and get a job.

Peace out love muffins

end transmission of day 1

Saying goodbye never gets easier

It seems so hard to let someone go who you truly wanted to be a major part of your life. Yet all you can really do is that them go and hope that everything you ever wanted for them can be supplied by someone else. As long as they are happy and everything works out right? It still sucks on your end, its hard to cope with the realization that you may never see this person again and its probably for the best this way. Last full day in town, last night in town...

I'll miss everyone

later

Life is neither a problem to be solved nor a game to be won

Slow dance, By David L. Weatherford

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round

Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever Follow a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.

Tims is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?

When you ask: How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done,
do you lie in your bed

With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time
To call and say, "Hi"?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast

Time is short,
The music won't last

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower.

Hear the music
Before the song is over.

Everyone should read "The 4-hour work week" It changed my life. It has changed my perspective on numerous things. That and many of the people I have met in the last 6 months have completely changed me and I would like to thank everyone. Certain people more than others, you know who you are.

The science of selling yourself short

Music... Man do I love music. Mostly the lyrics, especially when they just make sense.
I love discovering a new song that feels like it was written for me, about my life, at this specific point in time... I constantly am on a quest to discover said music to enjoy hours upon hours of listening. So many songs have had seen countless hours in my car, in my house, and on my ipod. If anyone has ever been to my house they know that the TV is never on and it is constantly music from my computer. Random tracks from the nine thousand five hundred and seventy seven songs that have gathered on my laptop. Anything from Tom Petty to LMFAO, all genres, all everything = more betterness. I will always have a weak spot in my heart for punk covers though, and anything by the Mars Volta... In any case, Leaving saturday, packing is becoming more urgent.

Listen to the lyrics...

Life on standby

It seems like as the move approaches everything else in my life is being put on hold. The more I think about moving the more selfish with my time I get. All my schemes and plans are just at a rest until I am packed and cleaned, and out. And as time approaches and I say goodbye to the people that I care about the most it gets harder and harder to commit so such an ordeal. Even after saying goodbye it just hits me, was that really goodbye? I feel like I should have hugged them longer... Tying up all the loose ends... Anyways, If you want to say goodbye apparently the 805 patty house will be hosting a going away fiesta on friday.

Hit it up on facebook

Peace Blogs

Day 5

So with the moving date constantly moving around itself it is making my life a little more chaotic. After my childhood pet Kitcat continues to have seizures it has become an unanimous decision that it is time to put her down. Not going to lie, I have shared my bed with this cat for roughly 15 years and its most likely going to be the hardest thing I've ever had to do. At what point is it alright to euthanize something? Who am I to decide that her life is no longer worth living? After much debate and realization that she no longer can see/hear, she has seizures frequently, and just eats/sleeps/bathrooms all day, I think it is time. Apparently when cats purr it is not a good indication of happy.

On a much lighter note I have been conned into drinking come friday apparently for a going away party, So if you would like to come please give me a message

Packing....

So I have decided that all I am to bring on my sweet move with me is clothes, workout equipment, and my laptop... the last two parts are easy, the whole Clothes part, not so much. So I have pretty much decided to sell all the lululemon stuff I will no longer be using/have never worn, if you are interesed in purchasing anything the going rate seems to be 25$ for T-shirts and 45$ for hoodies. I can send pictures if one would like as I pick out which will stay and which will be voted off the island. Pretty much everything is a medium...

And for the record "Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs" is an amazing movie and everyone should watch it

Appropriate moving dates....

Day 4

Its so hard to start a countdown when you don't know the exact day that you are leaving... And its hard to decide when to leave when you really don't want to drive roughly 13 hours into winter. However thus far my journey should be something like, leave friday get to revelstoke, sleep. Wake up and drive to calgary, spend the night. Wake up drive to edmonton, spend the night. Wake up drive to Grand Prairie. The only timeline I really have is a job interview on dec 2. Other then that I am just kind of winging it. Anyways enough thinking...


Have you ever noticed that once you decide you are moving you become more popular? People who couldn't find time for you before are suddenly contacting you and trying to be friends with you again? Yeah, I thought it was weird too. Apparently when you try and hang out with people and there isn't a deadline no one really cares, however once you add that deadline (yet you have very little time you want to spare) people feel you HAVE to hang out with them. Sorry team, Its packing time, everything I do from now on will be a selfish act that will somehow be something that I want.

Later B's

Day 3 Billy the Cleanse

So exactly twelve days before I decide to leave my fearless roommate/best friend decides to start a cleanse which results in him taking three pills and some drops twice daily (including laxaherb). NOT only that but he can't drink Dairy, eat bread, and/or consume alcohol... I would be pissed if I was doing that whole drinking thing, however I am on a sober spell... for the most part. Anyways this cleanse is 12 days... I leave in 12 days. The weird part is my concern for the 12 litres of milk in the fridge that will surely not last the 12 days, I have to up my milk intake. Big time. And to top it all off we have costco-sized every vegetable in our fridge, no longer will we buy one avocado costco says buy six. Costco says eat 18lbs of organic carrots before they go bad... good luck. However the positives out of all of this is Billys cooking skills have leveled up to a least a level 1 minor chief, his pan fried salmon was award winning for sure.

In any case today is a busy afternoon filled with training and excitement, mostly training. Maybe hit up the gym, pack a sweet lunch of veggies and pan fried salmon, and hopefully finish flooring tonight!

Peace out Bloggers

Day 2, Less stressed out meow

Waking up and perking a glorious blend of El Salvadorin coffee straight from El Salvador... What an amazing way to start the day, first client cancels leaving me nothing but time to write to my lack of followers. Today will be a relaxing day with a mild chance of work and gentle flurries of getting stuff organized. Hoping to get some domaining action, pending miss Donna (www.donnahanlondesign.com) has some free time for me, since she was oh so busy with an art show last night. Also Billy and I will be attempting to get loaded off of contact cement finishing Wayne Dormans gym floor (www.dogzies.com). And the final plan of today is to track down a roommate for Billy, Would anyone like to rent a fully furnished bedroom with a 6'3 hunk of man? If so contact me on facebook or send me a message on here and we can work something out

I'm off to get more coffee, Blog at you tomorrow

Destination... ALTA

After 2ish years in kelowna it is moving time
Seems to be a common trend of mine
On to the bigger and better
The colder and wetter
packing up and going up north
Finally trying to proove my worth
Moving on from what I've made
The memories I have I will never trade...


Pretty much the countdown has begun, Two weeks and I am bouncing town, Trying to find a roommate for Billy and trying to start my life from afar. Its not easy, I can definitely tell that my body is nervous, I have that queasy feeling. At least I have a solid support team making things easy on me, and all the caring people shooting some pessimism my way. I plan on living the dream and leaving the sunny OK. Now you may ask, but why Mitch, what about the fine and dandy life you are living? Meh... Its time to make an impact on this world. So this is the beginning of my blogs to keep everyone informed as what is going on in my life. The trial and tribulations of a personal trainer.