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Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Warn your warmth to turn away...

Here it's December... everyday.

Some nights when you are at a loss for words and all you want to do is carry on a conversation. But you can't think of the right person that you can call and just sit on the phone with just to have the comfort of that person. The world runs on connections. There are so many different connections in this world, yet the smallest ones can make the biggest differences. If you can find someone that you just connect with over silence it can be amazing.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

We held hands on the last night on earth...

Sometimes its quite difficult to fathom that because you are sacrificing your life and where you live to make money that you are actually sacrificing relationships with people that you could be attaining. If I thought somehow luring a girl into my grasps was hard, doing it while being 1000 miles away and working just under 100 hours a week makes it even more intense. If only someone with goals and a future in mind would fall into my life.

Anywho, been cranking out the hours for Techmation. A 14 hour day, some 11's here and there, going for 20-21 days in a row. I am presently exhausted. However I cannot wait to see my Rio. My brother. My mother. Finally have some down time with the boys and get some beers going down.

Of all the things I am most looking forward to, its having a real bed to sleep in. Going for runs with the dog. And just doing nothing.

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Always realize that some things in life are steppin' stones

At certain times in ones life they have to realize that so many jobs/people/objects are just a gateway to your end goal. Never lose sight of the big picture. Although something may consume your life be aware as to where it will take you. As terrible as it sounds, look after yourself. Sure you should have friends who you can look after and love and care for, but in the end you should be a little selfish and think about how the relationship/scenario/job will benefit you. Never stay at a company because you don't think they could function without you, because chances are... they can.

So live your life for you, flourish by yourself and others around you will seek to attain similar goals

Saturday, November 6, 2010

post southern BC trip

After many hours of driving (more than required there and back actually!) and discovering my dog (Rio) is an amazing travel companion, I have returned home to Dawson Creek. I must say the road trip was enjoyable despite taking some wrong turns and just ignoring shorter routes. Billy and I, as usual, sang to every song, downed energy drinks and coffee, and ate everything we generally neglect to eat (your welcome mcdonalds). While in Kelowna I consumed more coffee throughout the day than normal, apparently that and dog walking is the only way I know how to be social.

So just to recap on my life. I enjoy being up north cause it makes seeing everyone I miss that much more special. I have purchased a Mango Tango colored Jeep Rubicon. My brother is tending to my doggy while I am up north. Andddd Billy and I are making a list of where we are traveling too in 2012. If you have any input as to where a good destination to travel too is please leave a comment on facebook.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

I despise cold feet

Finally snow and cold weather. It held off for this long thank god. This means dual long underwear action, think winter beards and the thickest wool socks possible. I am driving down to kelowna Nov 2nd with Billy to visit/drop off my dog to my brother. I'm hoping for a mini vacation, meet up with old friends and get spoiled by my mom... Heres to hoping

Thursday, October 21, 2010

If you could see me, whomever I am

Discovering who is really an identity in your life is hard to understand.

How easy is it to fall out of someones life? When someone is no longer around how much should one care about that person? Depends on the level of the relationship prior to the departure. If this is the case how do some people just let go so easily.


Life is solid up in Dawson, snow is expected soon, the gym is empty and old, the apartment is overpopulated yet comfy. Meals are feast and paychecks are fortunes. Things could always be worse but it is hard to make them better, good company, and hard work makes everything seem alright. Pulled some heavy cable today (its roughly 10lbs a foot) It takes a toll on the body when doing it for around 8 hours.

Just trying to keep everyone updated if anyone reads this

Seacrest out

Saturday, October 16, 2010

You can breathe now, but the air is running out

What is the best way to fully experience life? To fully appreciate and live to what you should? Utilizing everything that is within your grasps. I now fully believe its not who you know, or what you know, but how you interact with people that you meet along the way. Sure knowing people is nice, but unless you have a positive relationship with that person/persons it will never be to your advantage in the long run. So why do people decide to have a negative perception/outlook/whathaveyou. Positive energy leads to positive experiences, which in turn lead to a positive life(style).

Living in Dawson isn't all bad, tons of focus on training, eating (not THAT healthy) and figuring out life. Its so hard to figure out who you really are... or even if you should be looking. I keep saying that I am figuring myself out... but what is there to figure out? I know what I want and where I want to be, Its just a matter of getting there and realizing that everything takes time.

Never be outworked

Die on the treadmill

Monday, September 20, 2010

Lloydminster...

Living in a 2 bedroom condo, sleeping in a laundry room, no furniture... I could not feel more like a crackhead. The things we do to make money and try and succeed in this world. Day 20, or is it 21? I can't even tell anymore, working 10 hour days since August 31st begins to take its toll. It doesn't seem that bad at first, but eventually when the weather goes south and the people you work with grow tiresome, its a hard life to entertain.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

Its far from over...

Life is nothing but amazing, as time develops as does everything in your life. I fail to see how people can waste time in video games when you can level up, go to the next level, or receive achievements in real life. The harder one works the greater the payoff.

As the next month approaches so much excitement is dawning. Heading to Lloydminster to work on a husky gasplant for two months. Billy moving up on the 9th and an ever exciting road trip to pick up Bill's items and visit my much neglected family and friends in kelowna, Revelstoke, and Calgary.

Much to my dismay winter is upon us in Grande Prairie, where have the hours gone? despite working 87 hours a week in Dawson for the last 2 months I feel I had a quite enjoyable summer. One Edmonton trip, a flourishing backyard and fence. A detox or two and the most badass wrist and neck tan a man can have. Finally feeling like a man, finding myself becoming who I really am. I have everything I need and enjoy the career path I am on. The only problem is my workouts have become less than satisfactory. My diet is demolished, however life is good.

Anyways Have to go buy FR raingear, Will probably be updating a lot more in lloyd due to free time.

Monday, June 21, 2010

When you came in, the air went out...

Since we left off last I was in the air with how my life was going. As of now it appears I am a apprentice electrician for Flint Energy Services. Its pretty badass, easy work, good money, No complaints...

I seem to be making decent gains at the gym, pulling an easy 410 when i deadlifted last. Mindset plays such a huge role in everything. Although sometimes it can be extremely hard to get into the right mindset once there, the options are limitless.

I will never no matter how hard I try, understand people. Although with time you can manipulate and help influence peoples ideas, To completely understand and dissect someone is and always will be beyond me. Society is cheap and easily influenced though, regardless if someone says they don't care about money, when it comes down to it, everyone cares about money. Appearance is another thing that people are heavily influenced on. So many people will tell you that looks has nothing to do with it, however if they could, they would take home the hottest girl in the world, sure she might not last but if she seemed decent at the time no one would say no.

Greed and Gluttony is what fuels this world. Even charities have someone benefiting, even if it is for the 'greater good' someone is volunteering or donating for their image. In a world with minimal selfless acts, does everyone have a greater meaning behind their actions?

Thursday, June 3, 2010

She isn't a saint but she'll drop you to your knees

Several days, weeks, months fly by. Routine has set in, time no longer seems to exist. Rio (my chocolate lab) is growing like a weed and becoming super intelligent. Over much internal debate I have come to realize that I dislike personally training the average person. Give me someone who wants to body build or a young powerlifter or athlete and I am like a pig in shit, however I grow tired of trying to motivate Joe. I have come to reason that generally no matter what I do that person needs to make a self realization that they are wasting away.

"If you were given one vehicle for your entire life would you put terrible fuel in it? Would you let it sit idle in the driveway for hours and let it just exhaust itself away? Anyone who owns a vehicle would call me an idiot for suggesting such a thing. However, You are only given one body in your entire life, and yet you will continue to disrespect it and destroy yourself internally... Why?"

In any case now its soul searching time, do I really want to try and sell stuff to people for the rest of my life... not really. Do I mind doing some grunt work and getting my hands dirty? Makes me feel like I have earned my keep, so to speak of course. In any case I am leaving it in the open what I plan on doing however I have just completed H2S alive and Fall Protection at the local college. The road does change over time and off ramps are taken...

Monday, April 19, 2010

Sacrificing Location to increase returns?

Does it really make sense that if you weren't busy in one location and were not trying that if you moved to another location that you enjoyed even less you would somehow succeed? Resorting to less income and less ideal living situation somehow makes things great? Negetives are just that, negetives. How does one jusitfy moving to a shithole of a town when they have nothing to excite and benefit them there...



What am I doing?

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Hockey, Hotels, and Hooters... A real guys weekend

This weekend I made the journey down to Edmonton for my little brother, Parkers, hockey tourney. It was a solid weekend of myself, Parker, and my Father. Did you know that hockey leagues now went to div. 9? I had no idea... In any case Silver was ours in the tournament and Parker made 10 dollars in "salary" for scoring goals in one of the games and winning a bet against me. All in good fun. One thing that became apparent throughout my encounters in the hotel and the bleachers is how many parents try and live through their children. Even if the child shows mild to no interest in the sport, the Father cannot comprehend how to teach his child how to have the same passion for the sport that he had. How does one teach desire? What would be the best way for a father to encourage his son or daughter to succeed in whatever they partake in... If only there was an easy answer to this question...


Older brothers was probably the best thing that was said.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

The situation...

3 and a half months and where am I? Still in Grande prairie, still working at futureshop, still only have two clients, still not living my dream... I need to push, get things going, explode with energetic enthusiam to get people into shape...


Life is short but sometimes I wish time would go faster, that things would happen at a greater rate so that I could get past the slow parts and enjoy what lies ahead. However it is all relative, I create how fast time moves and right now I am stuck in a null that is slowing me down. I need to break out of this comfort zone. If there is so much benefit outside of it, why is it that I want to not leave? This mentially handicapping thing is frustrating me. I have come this far, whats stopping me?

Being social, I lack knowing people in the community, its really tough to get out there when you are starting from scratch.

Here goes nothing...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

More Yoga Please

My life as it becomes ever more routine up in the great white north, Appears to be enjoyable more and more. Slowly adding yoga upon yoga classes and maintaining workouts I seem to be overwhelmed with fitness. I love a good challenge. However despite how many yoga classes I take on, I always want to find a way to afford more. And when I say afford I mean with both time and money, its not an easy thing to do. Work 40+ hours a week at futureshop, train clients, train myself, do yoga, sleep, eat, repeat... Thus resulting in my only social life outside of those things being at home with the roomie Callie, or Brenan when he is home from work. And yet I am slowly being satisfied by this. To be satisfied is to be content? I don't think I will ever be content, not up here anyways...

Anyways, in a perfect world I'll be back home in June for a visit...

Monday, March 8, 2010

If you are keeping score, you are bound to win...

Roughly three months in and I am starting to come up with ways to better myself, as much as I enjoy being in grande prairie I truly miss everyone back home. Longboarding to the beach, walking down to the bench at night to sit by the lake, Running knox, knowing some solid yoga instructors. Its all just not the same, so with missing home in mind and wanting to get an education I am trying to devise a plan to be back in roughly 365 days. Go to school for massage therapy, after that attempting to either get my Bacholers in Health Science. Shortly after that I would like to go somewhere and get a yoga certification. That is what I would like to do, I have no idea how it will pan out, but heres to trying.

Currently I have a job at GNC with call in shifts, I work full time at futureshop selling televisions, and I work 10 hours a month training Trudy and Darcy. I need to save ma money and get my shit together.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Day 4; the wild rose chronicles

No cheese, ketchup, and ranch... Those are the things that hold me together it seems. This morning... Day 4 we will call it, I found myself eating breakfeast with two forks half way through my meal... I have no idea where the other fork came from, better yet how I justified using it as a knife? After I figured out it was the wrong utensil I then began to wonder where I had found it, did it come from the drawer? Better yet, was it clean? Anyways, this thing sucks. Plus's in life, business cards are in print, laptop is up and running (I am typing on it right now!) Warm weather is on the rise, potentially yoga saturday morning.

It feels good to know that simple condiments can hold my life together.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

The Journey

No sugar. No processed grains. No dairy. Fish, chicken, veggies, non acidic fruits only. The things we do to maintain, enhance, and define ourselves and our bodies. Existing day by day by day, slowly losing motivation. What is the most motivating way to decide what progress is? It is better to look at every angle in order to keep one going. To narrow the sights to the path infront blinds the journey overall. Everything matters, and everything will make a difference. Regardless of what happens retain passion and you will succeed.

Friday, February 5, 2010

Apple crisp and maple walnut icecream...

That moment when motivation hits... The tipping point... Do you remember the last time something influenced you to change? People, places, things? Books, lyrics, quotes? Why is it so hard to find things in life that bring complete joy. Sometimes I think life should be easier... But then what would be the point of living if everyone was the same? If there was no competition or reason to succeed, what would become of me? If it didn't matter whether you worked harder or longer than someone... Would you? If the world was without praise and recognition would anything be invented? Would creation continue?


What if...

Friday, January 22, 2010

Find something that reminds you eternity exists. Embrace the mountains, the oceans, the earth, the trees. Regardless of what you do, these things will continue to go on. When one begins to realize that they are not able to destroy the world overnight, by making a small decision, it is quite freeing. In savasana tonight I became completely out of body, It was quite weird considering I haven't done any form of yoga in well over a month. To just relax and unwind and remove myself was refreshing. Nothing really mattered. And then to return is almost overwhelming, coming back to all that matters. I was once told that what is the point of stress, depression or any emotion that does not benefit you in some way. Some may argue that negetive emotions will motivate you to get rid of whats causing them. If you can't change it overnight, there is no point tying up your emotions with it. I'm not concerning my life with it... Long term everything will be effected... If you can only hold one thing in your mind at a time, make sure it benefits you...

Monday, January 4, 2010

Some dance to forget

Once the realization is made that you will get nothing handed to you in this world you begin to think that everyone is out to get you. The world that we dwell in, is nothing but a game or sport of everyone trying to succeed and be the best possible in whatever it is they do. However you come across people who just don't seem to care, why is this? How can someone not find pride in whatever they are doing. A moment of euphoria occurs, perhaps what they are doing for work is not what they take pride in. Perhaps there is some other hobby or activity that they do that they will do the best in, but it is not how they make their money or define themselves quite yet. Is it luck that someone discovers their passion and realizes how they can make money? Or is it that some people are just not looking?