Day 4; the wild rose chronicles

No cheese, ketchup, and ranch... Those are the things that hold me together it seems. This morning... Day 4 we will call it, I found myself eating breakfeast with two forks half way through my meal... I have no idea where the other fork came from, better yet how I justified using it as a knife? After I figured out it was the wrong utensil I then began to wonder where I had found it, did it come from the drawer? Better yet, was it clean? Anyways, this thing sucks. Plus's in life, business cards are in print, laptop is up and running (I am typing on it right now!) Warm weather is on the rise, potentially yoga saturday morning.

It feels good to know that simple condiments can hold my life together.

The Journey

No sugar. No processed grains. No dairy. Fish, chicken, veggies, non acidic fruits only. The things we do to maintain, enhance, and define ourselves and our bodies. Existing day by day by day, slowly losing motivation. What is the most motivating way to decide what progress is? It is better to look at every angle in order to keep one going. To narrow the sights to the path infront blinds the journey overall. Everything matters, and everything will make a difference. Regardless of what happens retain passion and you will succeed.

Apple crisp and maple walnut icecream...

That moment when motivation hits... The tipping point... Do you remember the last time something influenced you to change? People, places, things? Books, lyrics, quotes? Why is it so hard to find things in life that bring complete joy. Sometimes I think life should be easier... But then what would be the point of living if everyone was the same? If there was no competition or reason to succeed, what would become of me? If it didn't matter whether you worked harder or longer than someone... Would you? If the world was without praise and recognition would anything be invented? Would creation continue?


What if...

Find something that reminds you eternity exists. Embrace the mountains, the oceans, the earth, the trees. Regardless of what you do, these things will continue to go on. When one begins to realize that they are not able to destroy the world overnight, by making a small decision, it is quite freeing. In savasana tonight I became completely out of body, It was quite weird considering I haven't done any form of yoga in well over a month. To just relax and unwind and remove myself was refreshing. Nothing really mattered. And then to return is almost overwhelming, coming back to all that matters. I was once told that what is the point of stress, depression or any emotion that does not benefit you in some way. Some may argue that negetive emotions will motivate you to get rid of whats causing them. If you can't change it overnight, there is no point tying up your emotions with it. I'm not concerning my life with it... Long term everything will be effected... If you can only hold one thing in your mind at a time, make sure it benefits you...

Some dance to forget

Once the realization is made that you will get nothing handed to you in this world you begin to think that everyone is out to get you. The world that we dwell in, is nothing but a game or sport of everyone trying to succeed and be the best possible in whatever it is they do. However you come across people who just don't seem to care, why is this? How can someone not find pride in whatever they are doing. A moment of euphoria occurs, perhaps what they are doing for work is not what they take pride in. Perhaps there is some other hobby or activity that they do that they will do the best in, but it is not how they make their money or define themselves quite yet. Is it luck that someone discovers their passion and realizes how they can make money? Or is it that some people are just not looking?

Such is life

I'm out of words currently, perhaps at a later date I will be able to blog properly... anyways, futureshop is keeping me on and moving me to Home Theater, Its still effing cold, and I am still roommateless until the 2nd... Missing Calzone and Brendalin

Alright so, christmas isn't so bad, its been a day filled with phone calls from family and friends, finding out that apparently I have more packages at the post office that is closed till the 27th...

These lonely days are only chased by lonelier nights, but lonely is only a mindset when you can realize that this is time to respect. Alone time should be cherished like any other moment, eventually there will be no such thing. One will have to share the moments in their life with someone who makes it better. Who makes every waking second that much better, however until that point one must become comfortable with being alone...