When you came in, the air went out...

Since we left off last I was in the air with how my life was going. As of now it appears I am a apprentice electrician for Flint Energy Services. Its pretty badass, easy work, good money, No complaints...

I seem to be making decent gains at the gym, pulling an easy 410 when i deadlifted last. Mindset plays such a huge role in everything. Although sometimes it can be extremely hard to get into the right mindset once there, the options are limitless.

I will never no matter how hard I try, understand people. Although with time you can manipulate and help influence peoples ideas, To completely understand and dissect someone is and always will be beyond me. Society is cheap and easily influenced though, regardless if someone says they don't care about money, when it comes down to it, everyone cares about money. Appearance is another thing that people are heavily influenced on. So many people will tell you that looks has nothing to do with it, however if they could, they would take home the hottest girl in the world, sure she might not last but if she seemed decent at the time no one would say no.

Greed and Gluttony is what fuels this world. Even charities have someone benefiting, even if it is for the 'greater good' someone is volunteering or donating for their image. In a world with minimal selfless acts, does everyone have a greater meaning behind their actions?

She isn't a saint but she'll drop you to your knees

Several days, weeks, months fly by. Routine has set in, time no longer seems to exist. Rio (my chocolate lab) is growing like a weed and becoming super intelligent. Over much internal debate I have come to realize that I dislike personally training the average person. Give me someone who wants to body build or a young powerlifter or athlete and I am like a pig in shit, however I grow tired of trying to motivate Joe. I have come to reason that generally no matter what I do that person needs to make a self realization that they are wasting away.

"If you were given one vehicle for your entire life would you put terrible fuel in it? Would you let it sit idle in the driveway for hours and let it just exhaust itself away? Anyone who owns a vehicle would call me an idiot for suggesting such a thing. However, You are only given one body in your entire life, and yet you will continue to disrespect it and destroy yourself internally... Why?"

In any case now its soul searching time, do I really want to try and sell stuff to people for the rest of my life... not really. Do I mind doing some grunt work and getting my hands dirty? Makes me feel like I have earned my keep, so to speak of course. In any case I am leaving it in the open what I plan on doing however I have just completed H2S alive and Fall Protection at the local college. The road does change over time and off ramps are taken...

Sacrificing Location to increase returns?

Does it really make sense that if you weren't busy in one location and were not trying that if you moved to another location that you enjoyed even less you would somehow succeed? Resorting to less income and less ideal living situation somehow makes things great? Negetives are just that, negetives. How does one jusitfy moving to a shithole of a town when they have nothing to excite and benefit them there...



What am I doing?

Hockey, Hotels, and Hooters... A real guys weekend

This weekend I made the journey down to Edmonton for my little brother, Parkers, hockey tourney. It was a solid weekend of myself, Parker, and my Father. Did you know that hockey leagues now went to div. 9? I had no idea... In any case Silver was ours in the tournament and Parker made 10 dollars in "salary" for scoring goals in one of the games and winning a bet against me. All in good fun. One thing that became apparent throughout my encounters in the hotel and the bleachers is how many parents try and live through their children. Even if the child shows mild to no interest in the sport, the Father cannot comprehend how to teach his child how to have the same passion for the sport that he had. How does one teach desire? What would be the best way for a father to encourage his son or daughter to succeed in whatever they partake in... If only there was an easy answer to this question...


Older brothers was probably the best thing that was said.

The situation...

3 and a half months and where am I? Still in Grande prairie, still working at futureshop, still only have two clients, still not living my dream... I need to push, get things going, explode with energetic enthusiam to get people into shape...


Life is short but sometimes I wish time would go faster, that things would happen at a greater rate so that I could get past the slow parts and enjoy what lies ahead. However it is all relative, I create how fast time moves and right now I am stuck in a null that is slowing me down. I need to break out of this comfort zone. If there is so much benefit outside of it, why is it that I want to not leave? This mentially handicapping thing is frustrating me. I have come this far, whats stopping me?

Being social, I lack knowing people in the community, its really tough to get out there when you are starting from scratch.

Here goes nothing...

More Yoga Please

My life as it becomes ever more routine up in the great white north, Appears to be enjoyable more and more. Slowly adding yoga upon yoga classes and maintaining workouts I seem to be overwhelmed with fitness. I love a good challenge. However despite how many yoga classes I take on, I always want to find a way to afford more. And when I say afford I mean with both time and money, its not an easy thing to do. Work 40+ hours a week at futureshop, train clients, train myself, do yoga, sleep, eat, repeat... Thus resulting in my only social life outside of those things being at home with the roomie Callie, or Brenan when he is home from work. And yet I am slowly being satisfied by this. To be satisfied is to be content? I don't think I will ever be content, not up here anyways...

Anyways, in a perfect world I'll be back home in June for a visit...

If you are keeping score, you are bound to win...

Roughly three months in and I am starting to come up with ways to better myself, as much as I enjoy being in grande prairie I truly miss everyone back home. Longboarding to the beach, walking down to the bench at night to sit by the lake, Running knox, knowing some solid yoga instructors. Its all just not the same, so with missing home in mind and wanting to get an education I am trying to devise a plan to be back in roughly 365 days. Go to school for massage therapy, after that attempting to either get my Bacholers in Health Science. Shortly after that I would like to go somewhere and get a yoga certification. That is what I would like to do, I have no idea how it will pan out, but heres to trying.

Currently I have a job at GNC with call in shifts, I work full time at futureshop selling televisions, and I work 10 hours a month training Trudy and Darcy. I need to save ma money and get my shit together.